Made the beat with help from my other gai, Splice. It gives me energy and upliftment.
My mic was still on "Voice Isolation" mode without me knowing it lol so it wasn't recording extended notes (like singing) so I was kinda forced to just...talk. Just did one pass and this is what came outie! The "feel it" is giving Dispenza and we love.
The photo is from my first time taking myself to church !! United, very pro LGBTQ, meditative and hecka divine. In the same (beautiful) room as my grade school Xmas services; the smell was so nostalgic and grounding. I cast a prayer into the fire, I prayed with the pastor, I lit a candle and I prayed with the congregation. I loved getting to worship the Source of Unconditional Love in community 🥹
And now, here I am, sharing this final Meditation a full month after recording it, and something I just came to moments ago..."I’m wondering how much I even need to talk about God and the higher self … when I can talk about unconditional love and human evolution + reach more people who need my service 🤲🏻💫"
My mission? "Helping outliers find home within." Lordt knows that's what I stay doing 🥰
Bridging in multiple genre influences..exploring transitions between sections...I rly do love producing. Obvi Splice makes it rly accessible too.
Letting myself view Splice samples as potentially opening me up to MORE creativity, rather than less (or this idea of "cheating") ... because I get to feel into how I WANT to feel, and then create soundscapes which facilitate that. High satisfaction return on time invested.
Having a massive sample/song-starter library at my fingertips gives me more colours to paint with...this enables more of my genuine + authentic creative vision to come forward, and be experienced - by myself first, and then whomever is vibing here :3 so hai + ty for listening.
Cover is a photo I took of my TV while watching Maverick City Music (worship group). A vision board...seeing that big, lit crowd out there vibing to G0d...
I would have so much more motivation to do lit shows if I knew my audience was hungry for the divine. I CAN BRING THAT !!! And I'm on my way.
Putting in so much time removing blockages to my full expression rn, I've literally been getting sick. Needing lots of rest. Heavy internal (+ external) lifting. But I know the outcome is going to be so aligned, and bring me so much access to my full expression...and thus an aligned audience + full reception of all the blessings that match. 🥰
I love how these experimental "G0d" soundscapes brought me right back around to such a similar genre as what I've been making for so many years.
This series of songs was really the kick off to this super significant leg of my journey 🥲 and I feel nostalgic as I'm minting these last couple pieces.
Produced this in like 15 mins after all the malfunctions and restarts and my mic with the weird gate on it. No vocals in this...I like where it went :3 I am officially back in Splice land ~
but did you notice the Music Nerd hat tho !? Photo from a wander in Stanley Park post Shivs call. Spring has gotta be my favourite time of year :3 moss so soft and warm.
I will never leave you No matter how hard this gets . I will never leave you I will always be here No matter how hard this gets . So don’t worry Lay down your worries Lay down your fears I will always be here . Lay it down please Lay down your fears . It’s okay to be new at this and It’s okay to be scared in this and It’s okay to be frightened, my love . I will always be here No matter how hard things get
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Creator's Notes !
My mic kept fucking up lulll but it created a bit of a cool effect? Each of these lead vox were recorded totally separately ⅔ of them randomly didn’t pick up about 50% of my voice (which days later I realized was cuz the "Voice Isolation" mode on my phone for calls had jumped over to my comp for recordings...why apple why) But layered all together these vocals feel comforting 😌
Tonight realizing how much I have to let go of in order to follow my destiny, my passion for Ascension…my burning desire to spread Love, Unconditional Love, the Love of God … I want to, I have to scale Ascension. 11:11:11 It’s just the only thing I truly want to do for the sake of doing And I just want crystal clear clarity about how to do that, how to best do that, how I truly want to do that.
I was tired tonight but I said I’d do this for 9 days so here we are :3
I’m asking myself to lay down my fears
Masterminding with Shiva is low key stressful...because it brings up so much shadow to process and clear out, so that I can rise into my Highest. This helped me soothe the stress.
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Also noticing that Zora isn't letting me put mint-windows any longer than 3 months on my pieces today! Is what it is.
May this feel like a warm hug from your Higher Self to your inner child in moments of trigger 🤲🏻
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As a creator, the day I made this I wrote: "I can finally share my Unconditional Love 😌 How satisfying, how soothing I Will Always Love Youuuu"
I love being able to give the full depths of my Love without it building expectations that I will show up as a bestie or a boo. Yet I need an outlet for all this love I have to give...and I'm so grateful that on this day, I had this meditative song.
---
Singing in my apartment in these smooth and rolling ways has been revealing spots where I'm still getting stronger at articulating my pitch with my new voice ~ and its been great practice.
Okey this one a long boi :3 Settle in, take a deep breath, and feel.
Improvised meditative singing centred around finding home within the inner divine union...i.e. that feeling of being in love...everything is sparkly and alive, the present is remembered as a miracle...but instead of waiting for a partner to bring that out of me, allowing that state to emerge between myself and my forever bae...G0d/Source/Higher Self/Presence 🤟🏻🤟🏻🪽 cheeeeah
Background Instrumental by Shivarasa 🙌🏼💗 my dear friend. Go check out more of her music + meditations at www.youtube.com/@SHIVARASA !
Photo of "English Bay" in "Vancouver" (Musqueam, Squamish, Tsleil-Waututh-stewarded territory) but I ai-removed the boats so it looks so fresh n freeeee.
Been masterminding with my dear friend Shiva + decided to experiment vocalizing over one of her meditation music pieces. You can find more of her beautiful music + meditations at www.youtube.com/@SHIVARASA !
It felt calming to have such beautiful music already ready for me to sing over.
I like the feeling of experiencing my trans voice so expansively, with no aim but to be present with it. Feeling out my breaks, crunchy spots, pitchier spots. Breath control. Air flow needs in different parts of my range. Abilities and access. Edges and cliffs. Playing with rhythm and melody and tone and texture. Mmmmmm.
Singing makes me feel embodied. It is breathwork and somatic sound bath and divine offering and creative expression.
Frequency holds the power to transform.
“You are enough for G0d You are loved by them And I love you still. I love you still.”
“You are loved You are loved Yes you are Yes you are”
Inspo: ○ A Prayer Set Inspired by “Upperroom Worship Moments” YouTube chan They jam for over an hour on one song, in the vibrational field of the holy
○ Looping Vibes Inspired by Dianna Lopez Records a 5 min meditative vibe + loops it for an hour
○
Process: The track in the background of my singing was made with Udio: AI Music Maker (my first time releasing something made with ai). My Prompt: “soothing ambient meditation music with natural sounds at 174 Hz” + the cover art is screenshots of that process.
○
“EVERYTHING YOU ARE” I want to create something meditative A blessing A gift of the God-moment transmission.
“Everything you are is holy. You’re enough right now.”
I have so much faith. Faith is the pillar and backbone of my wellbeing. All I want to do is talk about and sing about my faith, and praise God.
—
I love God so much And I want to shout it from the rooftops Sing it to the sky And I don’t need to be a traditional Christian in order to do that I can love Christ I can love my Guides I can love Source I can love my Higher Self I can love the Spirit of Love I can love the Spirit of Divine Love I can love the Spirit of Jesus Christ I can love Christ’s Higher Self I do. And I can sing about it now.
—
I’m loosing stamina and motivation to “go after” music when its not music about God. There’s only one more, one True thing to do, to “try” One authentic thing I haven’t done yet, let myself do yet.
—
The one thing about Gospel music Is that is speaks about G0d as he/him/man. Whereas to me, G0d is non-binary. G0d holds multitudes. The Great I Am holds EVERYTHING. Like if I could just AI all these epic Maverick City Music songs to be “they speak over me” “they are righteous” “they love me” “they know my name” “They healed my heart” “They placed my feet on solid ground”
—
So in this hour-long jam, I sang…”Y0u Let me Love Y0u” and God does. They let me Love them. Unconditionally. Obsessively! And that brings Love to my life, profoundly so.
This was my first time breaking out my mic and set up in so long! An experiment. You can see in the cover art how even Logic was wonky.
I hope you feel me feeling the Divine in this song, and I hope it brings you great faith, presence, and spiritual prosperity too.
0x081b
The Presence of G0d - 4.28.2024 (MoG Day 9!)
Made the beat with help from my other gai, Splice.
It gives me energy and upliftment.
My mic was still on "Voice Isolation" mode without me knowing it lol so it wasn't recording extended notes (like singing) so I was kinda forced to just...talk. Just did one pass and this is what came outie! The "feel it" is giving Dispenza and we love.
The photo is from my first time taking myself to church !! United, very pro LGBTQ, meditative and hecka divine. In the same (beautiful) room as my grade school Xmas services; the smell was so nostalgic and grounding. I cast a prayer into the fire, I prayed with the pastor, I lit a candle and I prayed with the congregation. I loved getting to worship the Source of Unconditional Love in community 🥹
And now, here I am, sharing this final Meditation a full month after recording it, and something I just came to moments ago..."I’m wondering how much I even need to talk about God and the higher self … when I can talk about unconditional love and human evolution + reach more people who need my service 🤲🏻💫"
My mission? "Helping outliers find home within." Lordt knows that's what I stay doing 🥰
I Rly Enjoyed This - 4.27.2024 (MoG Day 8)
Letting myself view Splice samples as potentially opening me up to MORE creativity, rather than less (or this idea of "cheating") ... because I get to feel into how I WANT to feel, and then create soundscapes which facilitate that. High satisfaction return on time invested.
Having a massive sample/song-starter library at my fingertips gives me more colours to paint with...this enables more of my genuine + authentic creative vision to come forward, and be experienced - by myself first, and then whomever is vibing here :3 so hai + ty for listening.
Cover is a photo I took of my TV while watching Maverick City Music (worship group). A vision board...seeing that big, lit crowd out there vibing to G0d...
I would have so much more motivation to do lit shows if I knew my audience was hungry for the divine. I CAN BRING THAT !!! And I'm on my way.
Putting in so much time removing blockages to my full expression rn, I've literally been getting sick. Needing lots of rest. Heavy internal (+ external) lifting. But I know the outcome is going to be so aligned, and bring me so much access to my full expression...and thus an aligned audience + full reception of all the blessings that match. 🥰
I love how these experimental "G0d" soundscapes brought me right back around to such a similar genre as what I've been making for so many years.
This series of songs was really the kick off to this super significant leg of my journey 🥲 and I feel nostalgic as I'm minting these last couple pieces.
Contemplating Parts Work - 4.26.2024 (MoG Day 7)
but did you notice the Music Nerd hat tho !?
Photo from a wander in Stanley Park post Shivs call. Spring has gotta be my favourite time of year :3 moss so soft and warm.
I Will Never Leave You - 4.25.2024 - (MoG Day 6)
I will never leave you
No matter how hard this gets
.
I will never leave you
I will always be here
No matter how hard this gets
.
So don’t worry
Lay down your worries
Lay down your fears
I will always be here
.
Lay it down please
Lay down your fears
.
It’s okay to be new at this and
It’s okay to be scared in this and
It’s okay to be frightened, my love
.
I will always be here
No matter how hard things get
---
Creator's Notes !
My mic kept fucking up lulll but it created a bit of a cool effect?
Each of these lead vox were recorded totally separately
⅔ of them randomly didn’t pick up about 50% of my voice (which days later I realized was cuz the "Voice Isolation" mode on my phone for calls had jumped over to my comp for recordings...why apple why)
But layered all together these vocals feel comforting 😌
Tonight realizing how much I have to let go of in order to follow my destiny, my passion for Ascension…my burning desire to spread Love, Unconditional Love, the Love of God … I want to, I have to scale Ascension. 11:11:11
It’s just the only thing I truly want to do for the sake of doing
And I just want crystal clear clarity about how to do that, how to best do that, how I truly want to do that.
I was tired tonight but I said I’d do this for 9 days so here we are :3
I’m asking myself to lay down my fears
Masterminding with Shiva is low key stressful...because it brings up so much shadow to process and clear out, so that I can rise into my Highest. This helped me soothe the stress.
---
Also noticing that Zora isn't letting me put mint-windows any longer than 3 months on my pieces today! Is what it is.
I Will Always Love You - 4.24.2024 - (MoG Day 5)
---
As a creator, the day I made this I wrote:
"I can finally share my Unconditional Love 😌
How satisfying, how soothing
I Will Always Love Youuuu"
I love being able to give the full depths of my Love without it building expectations that I will show up as a bestie or a boo. Yet I need an outlet for all this love I have to give...and I'm so grateful that on this day, I had this meditative song.
---
Singing in my apartment in these smooth and rolling ways has been revealing spots where I'm still getting stronger at articulating my pitch with my new voice ~ and its been great practice.
Inner Divine Union - 4.23.2024 (MoG Day 4)
Improvised meditative singing centred around finding home within the inner divine union...i.e. that feeling of being in love...everything is sparkly and alive, the present is remembered as a miracle...but instead of waiting for a partner to bring that out of me, allowing that state to emerge between myself and my forever bae...G0d/Source/Higher Self/Presence 🤟🏻🤟🏻🪽 cheeeeah
Background Instrumental by Shivarasa 🙌🏼💗 my dear friend. Go check out more of her music + meditations at www.youtube.com/@SHIVARASA !
Photo of "English Bay" in "Vancouver" (Musqueam, Squamish, Tsleil-Waututh-stewarded territory) but I ai-removed the boats so it looks so fresh n freeeee.
Field of You Are Loved - 4.22.2024 (MoG Day 3.2)
Been masterminding with my dear friend Shiva + decided to experiment vocalizing over one of her meditation music pieces. You can find more of her beautiful music + meditations at www.youtube.com/@SHIVARASA !
It felt calming to have such beautiful music already ready for me to sing over.
I like the feeling of experiencing my trans voice so expansively, with no aim but to be present with it. Feeling out my breaks, crunchy spots, pitchier spots. Breath control. Air flow needs in different parts of my range. Abilities and access. Edges and cliffs. Playing with rhythm and melody and tone and texture. Mmmmmm.
Singing makes me feel embodied. It is breathwork and somatic sound bath and divine offering and creative expression.
Frequency holds the power to transform.
“You are enough for G0d
You are loved by them
And I love you still.
I love you still.”
“You are loved
You are loved
Yes you are
Yes you are”
Everything You Are - 4.22.2024 (MoG Day 3.1)
○ A Prayer Set
Inspired by “Upperroom Worship Moments” YouTube chan
They jam for over an hour on one song, in the vibrational field of the holy
○ Looping Vibes
Inspired by Dianna Lopez
Records a 5 min meditative vibe + loops it for an hour
○
Process:
The track in the background of my singing was made with Udio: AI Music Maker (my first time releasing something made with ai). My Prompt: “soothing ambient meditation music with natural sounds at 174 Hz” + the cover art is screenshots of that process.
○
“EVERYTHING YOU ARE”
I want to create something meditative
A blessing
A gift of the God-moment transmission.
“Everything you are is holy.
You’re enough right now.”
Just Know That - 4.21.2024 (MoG Day 2)
Sang to the sunset 😌 here iz pic.
Noticing that as I sing my Love to G0d, I'm starting to sound like G0d singing their Love to Us.
Like the Higher Self, the Divine Parent, singing its unconditional Love over the lower parts of Self, the fearing Self, the inner children.
Like a channel.
Y0u Let Me Love Y0u - 4.20.2024 (MoG Day 1)
Faith is the pillar and backbone of my wellbeing.
All I want to do is talk about and sing about my faith, and praise God.
—
I love God so much
And I want to shout it from the rooftops
Sing it to the sky
And I don’t need to be a traditional Christian in order to do that
I can love Christ
I can love my Guides
I can love Source
I can love my Higher Self
I can love the Spirit of Love
I can love the Spirit of Divine Love
I can love the Spirit of Jesus Christ
I can love Christ’s Higher Self
I do.
And I can sing about it now.
—
I’m loosing stamina and motivation to “go after” music when its not music about God.
There’s only one more, one True thing to do, to “try”
One authentic thing I haven’t done yet, let myself do yet.
—
The one thing about Gospel music
Is that is speaks about G0d as he/him/man.
Whereas to me, G0d is non-binary.
G0d holds multitudes.
The Great I Am holds EVERYTHING.
Like if I could just AI all these epic Maverick City Music songs to be
“they speak over me”
“they are righteous”
“they love me”
“they know my name”
“They healed my heart”
“They placed my feet on solid ground”
—
So in this hour-long jam, I sang…”Y0u Let me Love Y0u” and God does. They let me Love them. Unconditionally. Obsessively! And that brings Love to my life, profoundly so.
This was my first time breaking out my mic and set up in so long! An experiment. You can see in the cover art how even Logic was wonky.
I hope you feel me feeling the Divine in this song, and I hope it brings you great faith, presence, and spiritual prosperity too.