Through the other's gaze I see myself, guilty, miserable, I feel the attack, my inability to act before him...
If all this was just inside my head it wouldn't hurt so much, right...?

15.04.2024 illustration made with Krita & Photoshop.

Almost about to explode, wrapping myself in dark thoughts, falling, broken into pieces, I will not try to remedy myself again. I am accepting evil like never before, losing my humanity, releasing control of everything to get rid of the pressure I feel in my chest, to never feel again, the consequence is living an insane, avoidant, cut-off life. Am I knowing happiness? Is this my true self? -krita & PS. March 2024.